Becoming a Woman

My whole life, I have been what you can call a tomboy.  I have rolled in the mud as a kid, gotten into play fist fights with the guys at school, despised wearing dresses and refused to own any type of clothing where pink was the dominant color.  When I turned 18 I thought I had finally reached the point where I could consider myself a woman, but age doesn't mean that you have made it to womanhood.  I am currently 20 years old going on 21 within the next couple of months and I think I have just now grasped a little bit of what it means to truly be a woman.

I will never forget a talk I had with a close friend of mine where I was in complete venting mode.  I was going on and on about the fact that I didn't feel like a woman, I didn't feel beautiful or graceful or elegant like a woman should feel.  She simply pointed out how you dress is how you will often feel.  That struck me because my usual outfit would be jeans and a tshirt.  That's what I felt confident in, I wasn't secure enough to wear any other type of clothing.  Then I came to the Honor Academy...here it is a rule to dress in office attire which means I have to dress nice on a daily basis.

This started off miserable, I would change outfits several times in the morning because this one didn't look flattering or it was uncomfortable or I couldn't figure out what colors do and don't go together.  You would have thought I was a 5 year old dressing themselves for the first time.  Praise God I have a wonderful HA sister that taught me a lot about how to dress.  Now I am glad to say that I dress with confidence and with a sense of style (it's still in the process).

How I dress doesn't make me a woman, but it was the first introduction into womanhood for me. Another huge breakthrough was when I read Psalm 139.  God tells us what He thinks of us and we are able to see our value in that Psalm Since being at the HA I have learned so much about being a woman.  God has done such a work in that department where I can walk with my head held high as a confident, and bold woman who knows not only how to dress but she knows what her Father thinks of her.  He thinks she is beautiful and wonderfully made!!

Extreme Camps 2

This month, we had our second round of Extreme Camps!  I volunteered to help out again and was planning on assuming my position as a facilitator.  I knew what to do as a facilitator I was comfortable and prepared for what I would have to do with that job.  However, God had other plans for me.  On the first day of camps about an hour into registration I get a phone call that says to get to registration as soon as possible I was going to be a camp counselor.  I was nervous, I had seen how exhausting and challenging being a camp counselor can be, but I couldn't have been blessed with a better group of girls!  These girls made my experience easy and a blast.  They didn't complain they stuck together and respected not only me but they respected each other.  I poured all that I had into these girls and tried my hardest to make an impact.  At first, I didn't know if I was doing much other than being a friend along the way.  Most of these girls had been to extreme camps at least once before, they probably knew more than I did as far as how things work here.  They were all girls that love the Lord so it wasn't as if I had people who didn't know anything about Jesus with me.  I did what I could do to love them and be there for them throughout the week.  It wasn't until the last day of camps that I began to see a little fruit of my labor.  Our last night together was a powerful and vulnerable night where we talked about our identity in Christ and what God says about us.  That night, I was able to see walls come down in some of the girls life, I got to see them pray for each other and love each other through that.  A week later, I was able to see how God really used me that week.  One of my girls was back on campus for her mission trip and she brought me a gift from her and two of the other girls in my group.  The most precious thing (even though quarters for laundry was awesome) was a journal they gave me and inside the journal they had each written me notes.  These notes almost made me burst out in tears.  God showed me through their words the impact that I had made.  God really used me that week to minister to their hearts and to love and care for them!

Extreme Camps

This past week I had the awesome opportunity to be apart of what we here at Teen Mania call Extreme Camps.  It's a weeklong camp where young people Jr High through High School can come and enjoy our campus luxuries like our high ropes course, paintball course, gym, pool, and so much more.  The kids are able to be active and have fun, but even more than that, they get to spend a week away from the pressures of life and spend time with the Lord here in Garden Valley Texas.  I had the chance to facilitate for the week which meant that I was in charge of games and other activities on campus.  At first, I was a little bummed out that I would not be a camp counselor.  I wanted to be able to interact on a personal level with these kids to pour into them and see them grow through the week.  But I had an incredible time as a facilitator.  I was able to make sure the kids were taken care of, I got to see them have fun and enjoy their week.  I was challenged to make an effort if I wanted to interact with them, and I was able to talk with a few of them and get to know them.  It was definitely an exhausting but amazing week.  I look forward to the second camp that will be coming up in a couple of weeks!

Celebration LTE

My best friend Brianna (representing the Ukraine)

Sand Volleyball

My brother and I are so swole!!

Winners of the Women's 4x100 race

A couple of weekends ago we had out Celebration Life Transforming Event, for three days we here at the Honor Academy celebrated the life that God has given us by having our own Honor Academy Olympics.  In life, we so often get caught up in work, family, tasks, and responsibilities that we forget that the Bible tells us to celebrate.  For the Celebration LTE we got together in our family Core's to represent the country of our choice and with our family we compete in several athletic and athletic events to receive points for our team.  My family represented Algeria as we competed in events like soccer, basketball, volleyball, belly flops, synchronized swimming, pie eating, water balloon toss, three legged races, Frisbee toss, and a track meet.  The first day we had the more athletic events minus the track meet, and lets just say we didn't do the best.  However, the second day we had the pie eating, belly flop, and the track meet.  We dominated placing in almost every event that we did and even winning some of them.  We participated in at least 9 of the track events.  Out of the 9, we placed in at least 7 and won three!  I was so proud of the comeback my family made at that track meet.  Because of the amazing job we did the second day, we tied for third in the overall Olympics!  It was definitely a weekend that I will never forget.  I laughed and made so many memories throughout those three days and I grew so much closer to my family.



Every Dollar Counts!!

 

Hi Everyone! As you all know I am attending the Honor Academy internship in Garden Valley, Texas.  To get an idea of what I have been doing here, you can check out some of my previous posts.  I am currently in serious need of your help!!!  This internship, unfortunately, is not free.  In order for me to complete this incredible and life changing experience I have to pay $8,400.  Thankfully, this does not all have to be paid at once.  When I first arrived in January, I only had to have $2,400 in my donation record and since then I have been charged a monthly payment.  These payment started at $800 but the decrease as the year goes on.  I am currently being charged $650 a month to stay here at the Honor Academy.  As of right now, I am in need of $1,090 in order to meet my payments for last month and this month.  I need this money in as soon as possible!!  I have so many amazing supporters who have been faithfully giving to my internship on a monthly basis, but I am still behind on my payments.  Please consider taking part in this!  Please don't think that you are unable to give, literally every dollar counts.  Even if you can only give $1, it makes a huge difference!!!  By investing in my internship, you are being a part of hundreds to thousands of lives being impacted.  If you would like to give you can click on the donation tab at the top of the page. Thank you so much and God bless!!

Campus Preview Weekend

This past weekend, we had here on campus what we call Campus Preview Weekend.  This is basically the opportuinity for perspective interns to come to the Honor Academy and live the intern life for a few days.  During this weekend the participants get to experience our ropes course and obstacle course, be apart of corporate exercise, live in the dorms, hear from our leaders, see what a class is like at the HA, and interact with other interns through smooth music and a dance party!  The best part about Campus Preview Weekend is the participants get to have an amazing encounter with God maybe even for the first time.

I was very excited for Campus Preview Weekend!  My department makes all the calls for this awesome event so I was able to recruit and bring in several of the people that attended.  It was such an exciting time for me to finally get to meet the people that I have been putting in so much effort for.  I personally had high expectations for the weekend and God surpassed every expectation that I had!  A couple of days before the event started, my team and I went into the auditorium and we prayed over the room that hearts would be opened, that God would reveal himself to everyone there ect.  We each took an area of the room and prayed over it.  I went down to the pits (the area in front of the stage, sometimes people will go there during worship) and I also prayed over the altar since there would be an altar call the first night.  God really answers  prayer!!!  During each worhsip session the pits were full of people who were giving their hearts in worship to God.  And during the altar call, that altar was so full you couldn't walk around in it.  God is so faithful to give us what we ask when we ask according to His will!

You RElearn Something Everyday

 

Here at the Honor Academy I have been taking a few different classes that are teaching me about leadership and discipleship.  Among those classes is missions class.  To be completely honest, this class has been my least favorite all year.  I dread going, not that I don't like missions, for some reason I just don't like a class about it.  Our textbook has been Perspectives Exposure: Discovering God's Heart For All Nations and Our Part in His Plan.  Sounds like an interesting enough title right?  It has been a painful book to read in terms of my brain hurts when I read it.  Today I went to complete my final reading out of this book.  I could hear the angels rejoicing with me, I will NEVER have to open this book again!!  Then I opened up to see that I was going to be reading about the power of prayer.  I have a passion and a love for prayer, and through this book that I have been hating for the past 4 months, I grew an even deeper understanding and passion for it.  This lesson talked about the power of intercession and prayer.  Until this year, I never fully understood why we are supposed to pray.  Does God just want us to talk to him?  Does it remind God that there are things going on here on earth?  Why is prayer so important??  Prayer is essential in order for God to work here on the earth.  It makes me think of something one of my leaders here at the Honor Academy said.  Without God, man cannot, but with out man God will not.  We need God to work in our lives, but unless we ask Him for help or ask Him to work on our behalf, He won't.  Why?  God has given us authority and dominion over this earth.  In the beginning He gave the authority over to Adam, and Jesus reclaimed that authority for us.  We have the authority to speak changes over a situation, but God has the power to make that change happen.  Do you see how prayer and God are linked?  So yes, we talk to God through prayer, but prayer is also the link between God and us.  It links God to our lives, our circumstances, our situations.  Without God, man cannot, but without man God will not.